I think I have it

After some long thought and a bought of sickness and leaving the job that I have had here the longest, I am pretty sure that I know what I want to do.

A little thing called money held me back from admitting this one for a while but I want to go back to school to get my teaching certificate in theatre education. I will also get my masters but I will do that once I have a job so that the school that I teach in can pay me to do so.

The prospect of going back to school to teach theatre used to feel like the last resort option, the giving up option the well I couldn’t make it as a director so I'll just teach option. As I have gotten older I think I realize that it's an option I looked past when I shouldn't have.

What I enjoy doing is working and being in the theatre. I love the process, the discovery the drive and energy that it gives me. I think that without theatre in my life at such a young age, I would be a totally different person. I owe so many job interviews that I nailed to theatre training. I am able to think on my feet and be creative and throw everything away and change my plan at a moments notice because of all my training in the theater. I can improv, create, think in a sequenceal order and plan an entire experience because of theatre. I could go on, but basically what I am saying is that since everything that I can do, and the parts of life that I excel in all go back to theater, why would I not share that with students that could possibly benefit from that knowledge.
I think that it's extremely important to have arts education in school, and I think that being able the think creatively gives students another option and way of doing something.

So, back to school I go. The only school that it in the St. Louis area that gives you your teachers certificate in theatre education is Fontbonne University, which I hear is a good school for local teachers. It also happens to be 1 mile from my home! I will have to take a lot of classes that I would have taken in my undergrad if I had known that I wanted to teach such as psychology and basic teaching, but I think that know 5 years out of school I will benefit from that knowledge.

I am a bit scared because yes it will cost money, and take 2 years, but it will also make my brain have to work in the school way again, which I am not to sure I'm really totally ready for.
Also, something that will be in the picture this time around will be the possibility of having a child while taking class. That will also be something new and uncertain.

I guess at the end of it all, in 10 years I can look back on this and say wow that was hard, thank goodness I did it and look at my super cool job that I have now!